Everyday is a Battle

I think I just think too much. I seem to obsess about a few things. The top two things? Being a good mom (supermom) and my body.

I want to be the best mom for my children so they grow up loving me, loving the Lord, being smart and athletic. Overall, having them growing up as pillars of society. Productive, kind and positive adults that love their God. My problem is that I think and re-think about things I have said, should have said and what I will say at some point. I want to be the absolute best mom to my children, everyday, but I feel like I keep missing the mark. I want to encourage them and lift them up, enrich their lives. Then I get upset with something minute that they do and feel like I completely blow it.

As far as my body, I do not want to admit that I am obsessing about my body, but since I had Claire I think I am. I definitely struggle with too much thinking about my body every day. Or most days. Obsessing about my weight: trying not to eat too much, making sure I have adequate time to exercise and avoiding looking at mirrors seem to occupy my thoughts way more than they should. I should be past this by this point in my life.